When we fall we get back up and keep moving forward.

I started off 2020 by outlining a list of goals and ambitions nothing short of impossible and amazing. From the very beginning, I wanted the new year and the new decade to be the best one yet. The year was off to a great start as I started tackling my list with great earnest. Then seemingly overnight everything changed, like falling off a bicycle and scraping my knees, elbows and taking quite a tumble everything had changed by my own doing.

I was in a quandary of what to do at first, but I knew I just couldn’t sit there and wallow in the pain and suffering that I was experiencing. No, I had to pick myself up and make the best of the situation. At first, I wanted to apologize to everyone around me that I had disappointed them, that I had let them down in some form or manner. In truth, there wasn’t anyone around to apologize to, I was and had been all alone. Then out of now where I felt it. The one I should be apologizing to was me. What I remember telling myself was, “I’m sorry I didn’t do better for us. I’m sorry I allowed things to get this out of hand, and I’m sorry that I wasn’t there for you like I should have been. I could have and should have done better and this is what you have to thank me for. I promise that I won’t let it happen again.” Strangely enough, it was a comforting feeling even if it was coming from me. As I picked myself up I knew that I would have much time ahead of me to reflect on this moment and many moments in the days ahead.

There was no reason to continue to berate me over the past, it was after all the past but warranted a few final thoughts and words. My past along with various people in it was a sore subject that often left a bad taste in my mouth. I knew that my life took several tangents because of people and events that took place. Then, that time long ago the only thing I could do was move through the events and time best I could while trying to keep my mind together. In the more recent past, I became the person I needed to be to comfort the person I once was. I forgave many not for their but so that I might move on and not let the emotional baggage of the past weigh me down. The past was apart of me, something that tinted reality in its own distortion of a gray and bizarre haze. Like the ideas and themes and tropes of reading an impactful book many of the themes, ideas and tropes of the past stayed with me regardless of whether I knew it or not, or acknowledged it.

I might have gone on living my life seemingly living in a loop painted in those same undertones if I had not fallen so hard. I would have gone on making excuses thinking that I am getting ahead, making progress and doing something all because of a paycheck, or because I was traveling the world, seemingly doing things others hadn’t. Worse than making excuses was wanting the best in life, and not even giving myself the best I deserved. But like I mentioned before all this changed and came into perspective with that fall.

I had time now to put things like my past and my current situation into perspective. I had time to think and dwell and go in search of answers to questions that had been plaguing me. For all tense and purposes my life just stopped and at that moment my life began. One of the first things that came to mind was the movie The Darjeeling Limited and the unique ways in which the three brothers expressed themselves. My favorite part of the movie is that when the brothers finally found their mother they wanted to all share and express themselves. Instead, they took the time to sit there and project it to one another by simply thinking of the things the wished to say. Together they all shared in that moment of sharing. The last scene is each of them finding what they needed within themselves and as they chased after their departing train they no longer heald on to the metaphorical baggage that they had sought so hard to find in the movie that took on the physical share pf real baggage.

Growing up in I knew a great deal of uncertainty and so I held onto various ideas growing up. Ideas along with other ideas that keep me from growing, and keep me from experiencing life. When I laid down my plans, my hopes, my dreams and ambitions for the new year and decade ahead of me I spoke to the universe and told it exactly what I wanted. Almost as if I had gone out there and placed the obstacle in my life that I would later hit. Only picking myself up this time I didn’t pick up everything that I was once carrying and holding onto. The conversation between Major and the Puppet Master keeps playing over and over in my head.

The puppet master wanting to merge his A.I. with Major to form a synthesis of the two left Major wanting some reassurance that she would remain herself. She was reminded that there wasn’t one. That, “ all things change in a dynamic environment, your efforts to remain what you are is what limits you.” How long would I have held onto outdated or obsolete ideas simply to remain what I was before I broke all together I wondered had events not unfolded as they had? From then I had a choice to make, go back to the crash and pick up right where I left up some time ago as if nothing ever happened or abandon it altogether and make for a new life.

I knew that nothing from the past was going to help me in making for a new life and to further my dreams and ambitions. Aside from falling, I had regrets from the past as well, regrets that I take responsibility for, but regrets that always left me wondering about myself, my actions and my path in life. There was a reality that was happening and unfolding and transpiring and I wasn’t apart of the happenings and events. Nor was I seeing the reality I hoped and long for manifest before my eyes. In some ways, I already knew the answers but I know it was more than meet the eye.

Going back to the wreck I knew the answer in how to go backward, but going forward nothing from the past was going to help me move forward and so I had to call upon new ideas that we’re speaking to me. Some of the answers were obvious and others not so much so. What I was calling for was a personal revolution, whatever wasn’t working had to go, whether they were ideas, people, places, or anything that might keep me from reaching that reality. There was a new fire that had been light within me, one of passion and excitement. I was free to paint my future in the awesome and vibrant colors that I knew of.

I knew that in my heart that there were events that didn’t turn out the way I had hoped them to, and there were people in my life that I seemingly didn’t want to say goodbye to, and so I never really did. Now I tell myself the way to rewrite reality is to dream a dream so grand, so magnificent so awe-inspiring that it redefines everything. When I think of looking at life in this manner it’s no wonder I fell as I did. To undertake such movement would require a force greater than me to rearrange the heavens and the universe. This action would mean life as I knew it and had known it would change in dramatic ways as well.

I realized that the way in creating that reality was much how I created my reality in the first place, the events that led up to these moments now, by speaking seeing them into reality with belief and faith. I say this not as some mad man but as a realist. I know that we as humans only see and hear only a fraction of the visual and audible world. That our understanding is so limited by what we believe we and think we can perceive. I know too we can believe ourselves into any state we wish. I know this, or at least for me I know based on the ten ideas of knowing “a truth.” As for faith often we do things in good faith, the willing act of doing something before having received as if we have received.

The spiritual part of the journey is to not try and make sense of the bigger picture nor is it to judge but to find beauty peace and happiness in everything, that I am, that others are and that the world is. And, like all of my trips I have always gone with the moment and what felt right listening to that voice inside of me, arriving exactly where I needed to be at the right time.

When my friend from Asia called me up and was saddened that she wouldn’t be able to see me in March I couldn’t but feel a bit frustrated and upset. That was a fleeting thought and instead, I told myself that the time is irreverent. The ideas I seek to know and be will take time, and that this is not the right moment. That by following a path of greater beliefe and thought abstract of time I will arrive when I need to arrive, here there and everywhere.

Of course, there is the physical aspect of my dreams and plans. To lose weight, of course, I will be continuing with dieting, and exercise with the goal of not only getting down two my optimum weight, but I was inspired to do something else. I was inspired to do yoga, maybe not ever move in the book but I would like to do a few specific moves simply because it would be the crowning achievement in working out and obtaining physical and mental balance.

Of course, I will have to put in the time and effort to learn and do new things that I feel will best serve me in this journey, things like learning a new foreign language, and committing other things to memory.

This is the time that I give myself the best, my ideas my best, my passions, my family, my loved ones and those who believe in me.

What a great time we live in when I can greet the new day with enthusiasm and happiness knowing that I have a mind full of wonderful ideas and dreams, a body that I can use to manifest them in a reality of the tangible world, and wonderful people to share that dream and ideas with. Along the way, I look forward to learning and to be apart of other people’s beautiful lives journies all while discovering treasures along the way I never imagined. My hope is to bring them as much happiness as they bring me, that I might be there for them in their time of need and offer them a new way of seeing the world, even if it is just that a new way of seeing the world by seeing my travels and happenings.

The goal of change that I actively seek to know and take up the challenge is to:

Make the Artistic Abstract Adjective Beat Movement into the flagship of artistic movements of the world.

To learn foreign languages notable German and Japanese

To become physically fit getting down to an optimal weight so that I might perform several signature yoga moves and various physical exercises

To go back to school and work on obtaining my degree in accounting to become a CPA

To share life and artistic experiences with some close friends and aquatics

To become finically independent

To travel back to Japan, and Germany

To begin a new phase of my life where the dreams are no longer dreamed but made each day by taking action and actively working towards that and those goals.

Today I put that all into perspective

Some of the most inspiring ideas to get us through.

“Everyone goes through things! Always be yourself because in the end, yourself is all you got. It can be difficult to be proud of who you are some days but ultimately you’re the best you ever, ya know. That’s the greatest thing ever to be your own hero! I mean you know what you’ve been through, and I’m sure that definitely makes you a hero to you’re own story.” Unknown

In the time of social media people post some pretty amazing and awe-inspiring ideas from time to time. There have been a few that have caught me off guard and really impacted my life. She goes on to say in her post.

I don’t really know when or how it happened, but at some point I lost my confidence in my own voice.

I’ve always had a powerful voice (sometimes so much so that it was inconsiderate), but in the last few years I’ve noticed myself struggling to voice my beliefs and communicate my needs.

It’s honestly only very recently that I’ve started to realize this.

Here’s how I know that’s what’s up

-I stopped discussing political issues and voicing my questions/thoughts on controverial topics almost entirely over the last couple of years.

-My voice literally shook during conversations regarding something meaningful to me because I was afraid of being doubted or confronted

-I struggled to communicate my desires for my life + to say no to things I don’t really want because I was intimidated by the responses I’d receive.

-I catch myself hyper-editing my online + in-person speech to make sure I don’t say anything politically incorrect

Here’s what I have to say for now, as I relearn to trust my own voice:

You can have a fire in your throat and still be compassionate. You can disagree with people you love — even over controversial and heated topics — and still understand that they are a human being with legitimate human experiences. You can be afraid of losing love or of being judged and still speak confidently about what you need.

You have an extremely necessary, beautiful voice, and someone needs to hear what you have to say. Especially yourself.

Even if you need to begin by writing privately what it is you believe an what exactly you would say if you knew no one would ever read it, then do. Start somewhere, but don’t stop there.

Life mission

My mission is to be present for as many moments of life as possible and revel in the joy of these momentsand/or grow though them. My mission is to live a life that is interesting and exciting to me. My mission is to engage in work that is financaially supportive and brings joy to my life. My mission is to forever write and express myself, even if it doesn’t support me financially, and to never put pressure on my work to support me and to not be resentful if it doesn’t. My mission is to experience everything deeply, to stand in my self-worth integrity, to take time to appreciate life’s beauty, do the things I love, to grow from my experiences and to cultivate a fountain of peace and love within myself and then share it with the world around me. X.O. S.C. 2-20-2020

The conversation that started after went like this:

I Loved your post about your voice, it was very touching and inspiring and I just wanted you to let you know just that. I wish more people shared like this and wished more people shared.

It means a lot that you took the time to share this with me, thanks Terry. It’s important for us to share what’s most difficult sometimes.

I know how hard it can be to have a boice an idea a belief let alone to just be you. I remember wanting to put myself out there and at one point lost my voice. I found mine much like you have that’s why your message spoke out to me so much. I put mine out there again not like I use to and I have evolved my message. I want to share happiness love encouragement and growth. All I can ask for is people to believe in me and my dreams and to tell me theirs so I might do the same for them. Keep writing keep living keep being you. This is my voice, even if no one reads it or journyies though it, it makes me happy and I thought I would share it with you.

Thanks for sharing I like the way set up the site, it looks like a great project too. It’s a great place to find yourself when your own appreciation of your voice is enough.

Ten ideas in enlightment to knowing a truth.

This is a collection of ideas, thoughts, phrases, passages that combined suggest a bigger idea altogether. There is nothing here to suggest something that some aspect or way of thinking more right than another. Simply it’s a string, a collection that allows me to look at the world through another lens as to draw new conclusions, answer some questions and ask new ones. I do not know where some of the sayings or quotes came from but I will do my best to credit the ones I do, reference the ones I know, or simply mark them as unknown.

1: When Moses went spoke to God in the form of the burning bush, the response that is given is what can most commonly be agreed upon as being translated into “I am, that I am.” Exodus 3:14 I think that this is a rather profound statement any way you look at it. Anyone reading that one verse becomes that verse. For I am, that I am. I can’t help but think of Popeye the sailor man. Often he would go around saying “I am what I am, that’s what I am Popeye the sailor man” In this example he was clearly declaring to everyone exactly what and who he was.

2: I begin with a philosophical quote from the 19th-century french philosopher Des Cart. In his attempt to understand his existence the only thing that he could be sure of is that existed because he thought himself to exist famously saying. “I think, therefore I am” To me, this stands as a self-proclamation of acknowledging that you exist.

3: Now that we established both one and two we can look at both statements separately and as one coherent idea. A person can say “I am, that I am” and be what they are. Also, you can say I think therefor I am because you thought yourself into existence. No a merge between the two through the use of symbolic logic we come up with

a: I think there for I am, that I am, and

b: I am, that I am there for I think.

I believe that the first one suggest that the things we focus our mind upon are the things we inherently become. The second reinforces the idea that we exist because we can rationalize and contain the cognitive idea that we exist.

4. With being self-aware and acknowledging that you exist you imminently have to start taking responsibility. I think a great way of putting that very idea into perspective is by saying, “ do you know why you do what you do? Because if you don’t know why you do what you do, and people do react to the things you do, do, then how do you expect anyone to apart of anything that you are or could be about.” Unknown

At this point, I feel that we have established the basis of a limited rational thinking individual. The next logical linneral step is establishing a sense of morality. I think that this ideas is best summed up in the preface of the book “A clockwork orange” written by Anthony Burgess

“By definition a human being is endowed with free will. He can use this to choose between good and evil. If he can only preform good, or only preform evil then he is a clock work orange. Meaning that he has the appearance of an organism lovely with color, and juice but only in fact a clock work toy to be wound up by God or the Devil or since this is increasingly replacing both the all mighty state. It is as inhuman to be totally good as it is to be totally evil the important thing is moral choice. Evil has to exist along with good in order that moral choice may operate. Life is sustained by the grinding opposition of moral entities.” Anthony Burgers, A Clockwork Orange. 1986

5. To establish an idea of moral development and continue this argument I think an important idea that best sums up this idea is, “ What are the ideas you hold as values worth preserving, values being the very thing that define us as individuals, our sense of being. In essence the charter make up our moral code, the proverbial moral compass that goes on to make our identity.

There is a lot of information out there in the world on the idea of identity, but I think that one of the best sources when it comes to identity is the 1995 anime Ghost in the shell. The movie goes to great depths to articulate the ideas of what what identity is, how it is formed and how it is formed thought he use of a genera known as Cyber-Punk. Cyber-Punk because it often deconstructs preconceived notions we hold about ourselves and the world around us, allowing us to look at life and events in new ways that lead us to new understandings.

6: I think that one of the things that the anime movie “Ghost in the Shell” is that our identity is held in our memory. When I think about it I come up with this thought; our identity is how we remember ourselves. I base this not only on the movie but in my own experience. I have watched people who began to suffer from the early onsets of dementia to it’s late stages. In that time I watched people forget who they are along with people around them not to mention various aspects of their life both in the short term and long term memory. The question then remains is who are we then when we forget who we are, a shell of our former selves? Even from personal experiences with various ideas that i visit from time to time and forget I have to ask myself how that changes me and impacts me as a person.

7: Now with some degree of certainty we can say that our identity resides within our memory we begin to look at how that sense of identity is influenced.

7.a: Again “Ghost in the Shell” makes mention of humans being hacked and given false memories. Like the garbageman of the movie, we see his perception of the world is changed because of the false memories that are placed within his mind. Anyone who as studied marketing knows that companies will go out of their way to subliminally plant ideas within people so that when they go out they are more inclined to buy their products. In the early to mid 90’s I remember there being legislation regarding the volume of commercials. Once a show was done airing their segment the decibel at which commercials were played at a much higher level. This was again a market ploy in order to sell more products in hopes of subliminally planting ideas within people.

7.b: One of the biggest factors when considering your identity and the identity that the movie makes note of is our relation with space. Nerd Writer off of You Tube goes into great detail talking about our relationship with spaces and influences that we have with them. I think the two biggest things I take away from his case study of Ghost in the Shell and spaces are this. “Ghost in the shell wants to show us the dynamic between ourselves and our spaces that we are one and the same, One. Secondly, “spaces like identities are constructed through space that often feels natural like we can move anywhere in it but our movements are activities our life is always limited by the way space is produced. Spaces and identities are constructed but not always by ourselves. Later in Nerd writer’s case study of “Ghost in the Shell”, he touches on a notion by the late philosopher Michell Focault. Foucault suggests that “a space that doesn’t succumb to the forces that try and make everything the same are marginal spaces for the voiceless to construct identities for themselves.

The mind is a infinite space unfilled unless we ourselves put ideas, and thoughts into it and grow our own original ideas out of it. The question is what sort of ideas and thoughts are we to fill our minds with, that is the question. Some people fill their minds with experiences, elaborate ideas contained within books, movies and the experiences of others giving themselves a depth and complexity that only comes with the consumption of knowledge and information.

8: Like two sides of a coin there are those who do not posses such knolwdge. Ideas like Plato’s cave, or the Theseus paradox go unknown. Worse history and the inharent lessons found within it become lost or remain irrelevant while it continues to repeat and unfolds around them. A functioning society simply going with the flow of things wearing the pervabile hat that “society” has produced and openly wears. The only thing that is more disturbing then there bing a scoiety that wears such a hat is a society that dosne’t know it wears such a hat.

9: There is a choice we must live with when it comes to knowledge. The old saying goes on to say “ignorance is bliss,” but what is life without ignorance, without that “bliss.” Almost like the movie The Matrix we can’t go back to living a life that we once know the truth that’s when life really begins.

10: In the end of this argument the thing we can take from it that the most important thing we posses is our minds because it keeps who we are. Our life is another most important metaphysical and tangible idea we posses as it is the body the shell in which keeps our mind. Finally is the ideas we fill our mind with, the ideas that keep us going that define us that give us purpose and fulfillment, beyond simply wearing preconceived ideas and notions.

I have a friend

When you have someone in your life who is a positive force I think it’s important to put those good vibes out there into the universe.

 I have a friendship that’s been going on now for 20. Although we have only had the opportunity to catch up a handful of times that has not stopped us from keeping a friendship going. Her life plays out like some romantic novel where each page is unique and each chapter a journey.  After hearing of these adventures and seeing her art at her various shows she inspired me to travel half way around the world to experience her city and a day in her life as an artistic.  While visiting I gained a new experience and understanding in life that I’m forever grateful for.  Wondering the city and taking everything in I learned we as humans are not all that different, that we are more alike then not.  The things we differ on and the things we are is what makes us uniquely ourselves.  

I got the chance to meet one of her friends while at one of her artistic workshop she hosted teaching in both English and Turkish.  Afterwards over wine and conversation we all learned something new about ourselves and the world we live in that night. I also had the chance to ask many questions I had long to ask about the world and of life. I got the chance to share my own ideas in art and gain new perspective into the way another artist sees and deals with reality. I left with many of my questioned answered but also left with many new questions unanswered.

I can honestly say I love my friend, not in a romantic sense but because she lives a passionate life putting her heart and soul into her work, and by putting her message out there into the world.  Kind, sincere and genuine in her actions I’m thankful to have her as a friend and a positive force and influence in my life.  The chance to support and believe in a such a talented and amazing artist brings me a great. The chance to know a day in her life in her city I hope can be matched by being able to share my love of Tokyo and Kyoto with her, or that she might know their magic one day.

As far as the idea in art goes for artists uniting I know she does an amazing job depicting and portraying the culture and people of Turkey and thus making the world a little smaller.  So many people have an opinion of the word yet know nothing of their own back yard. Though her art she give the people of an amazing city and country a voice and a face that is heard further then one person can carry alone. 

I look forward to both our artistic endeavors where ever thy may take us and to our future works of art.

Japan 2021

Tokyo 3.0 put off until 2021

With only 67 days left until my next trip to Japan I ended up canceling my trip entirely the second day of the new year. This decision didn’t come lightly and was difficult to carry though with. I knew it was for the best for several reasons. With the desire to make the next ten years something more then I could ever imagine 2020 was to be a rebuilding year. I had already accomplished one major accomplishment having traveled to Japan in 2019 before the 2020 Olympics. A fan of the 1988 movie “Akira” that was set in the year 2019 I couldn’t help but live out a life long dream much like the fans of movie “Back to the Future II”

Packing five major trips into two years I wasn’t planning my trips as much as I could have been. Instead of putting any real thought I was simply picking places and going with the flow of things. There was nothing wrong with simply wondering through life until I got tired of acting like a background character to my own story. With over a year to plan Japan 3.0 I intend it to not only be a Japan trip but also plan to make it to China and Korea as well. More importantly I hope to learn at least an elementary understanding of the language so that this time around I might make new friends, gain new understanding and learn new perspectives. The first two times has left me with a list of questions a mile long.

This time I was suppose to vist once again my beloved Tokyo, and Kyoto, but also Toyama, Nagasaki, Okayama, Kobe, and Osaka. I wish to add to this list Nara, Nogoya. Spite having visted twice already I still need to make it to Mt. Fuji, and to several musemes and artist gallaries depicting some of Japans most famous and iconic works of art.

I know that one thing I would love to see in China is the Tokyo Reserve, but when it comes to Korea I have no idea.

The end of 2019 and the end of a decade

With only a day left to the year and to the decade I felt it only right to take a moment and reflect upon the past and give insight into my future plans and ambitions.

There is no doubt that the past ten years have been a journey unlike I ever imagined. Shortly after my return home from university I was tasked with administrating a vast estate after the untimely passing of my grandfather. Being entrusted to do the right thing out of the family taking care of the estate took me nearly nine years to see it through. Since then little remains of a past that was once believed would transcend time it’s self. I remember standing across from my our childhood home as it was bulldozed in, now a vacant lot used for storage of snow. I myself only keep a few things from that time, a coin from the 1800’s a bible that my grand father carried around always, and a Gibson guitar from the 30’s. There was no reason to hold onto such material wealth not at the cost of living my own life.

With the passing of a generation I dealt with a reality that few my age understand at that time. Though the task was daunting and at times frustrating dealing with members of the family let alone the numrious clauses and amendments to the trust I finished in 2019 filing the final income tax return.

I retired shortly after that and enjoyed my time going back to school until the oil crash reuslting in the loss of most of my investments. Instead of being bothered by the reality of the stock market I went back to work and began the next steps of my journey.

I was fortunate to put together an art show and build a web-sight ,The Artistic Abstract Adjective Beat Movement. A movement and an idea that I intended on becoming the flagship of all artistic endeavors of the world. This was the first time I put my art and work out into the world to be seen. A raw glimpse into my life, with my written pieces I embraced the feelings and was happy to express an idea of life and a sense of being.

The artistic movement was only the beginning. One of my greatest discoveries was a concept know as “Identity In Space.” An idea that would influence me my works and continue to influence my life in profound ways. Most impactful of this ideas was my travels around the world, as it gave me new insight into life. No longer did I wish to take things at face value, but instead I wished to from my own opinion by traveling there and experiencing events, culture and ideas first hand.

My first trip took me to France. Not only did I see the iconic city of Paris but I was fortunate to see much of the country side by road tripping from the southern coast back to the capitol. Along the way I was able to try local dishes and various foods along with getting to see some of the most amazing and best preserved Roman ruins still standing.

My next trips paralleled each other, sort of follow ups to one another. A huge fan of anime I was able to go to the L.A. Anime Exp and Japan two years in a row. The first time experiencing both I was overwhelmed taking everything in. Coming from a city of 50,000 with the largest city that I visited maybe being half a million I was in for a cultural shock. Not speaking the language and only relying on technology I can say that I had the time of my life once I settled in for the experience.

The Anime Exp is unlike any convention out there and radically different then Comic Con. Though after experiencing the convention twice I will not be attending the L.A. Expo again. In 2019 for what ever reason the lines were out of control, events were sold out without prior acknowledgment. Best summed up the convention had outgrown the venue.

My second trip to Japan I not only saw the things I missed out on in Tokyo the first time I lost my heart to the city of Kyoto. Kyoto will always hold a special place in my life for the magic I found and the friends I made there. Truly a story that I couldn’t have imagined happening but happened all the same. Hiroshima was a city that I reflected upon greatly forever changing how I would look at the world and take things for face value. While in Hiroshima I had some of my most memorable times drinking and eating with the Japanese business men at some local little bar.

The last trip that I took for the decade was for my 36 birthday. I went to Turkey not only to celebrate my birthday but to also see a friend of mine and celebrate in her gallery opening Elements of Istanbul. Spite the problems I encountered and only getting to spend four days I had a magical time, and got to see everything I had hoped to see. I couldn’t have asked for a better time nor could have I asked for more. My time getting to catch up with a friend and experience a city that she loved enough to make her home was a crowning achievement in my life.

Aside from my travels around the world I took a new job in the oil field and because of that I have been afforded the opportunity in seeing much of the United States. I have been fortunate to travel to Texas, New Mexico, Montana North Dakota, Tennessee, Kentucky, Ohio, and Pennsylvania. The job I had before was in the food industry where I was a cook for the better part of ten years. Spite only having a handful of people who believed in me I made it spite various obstacles and difficulties. I continue to work at my job and am getting ready to celebrate my two year anniversary. I am thankful that it has provided and continues to provide me with opportunity to do things I never thought I would get the chance to do.

As for the future I intend to continue to make art and develop my ideas spite my demanding and crazy schedule. I look forward to growing my web-sight with not only my accounts of life depicted through art. I want nothing more then to combine with fellow artists and others in painting a bigger picture to life so that we might understand our own identity within that space.

The goal for traveling it to make it back to Japan as to see the Cherry Blossoms in full bloom, but but beyond that make it to many more cities along with a visit to my beloved city of Kyoto. Beyond Japan is China, Vietnam, and Korea.

I look forward to meeting new people and hearing of their experiences and how they see and preecieve life as to grow my own opinion. Home is an abstract idea, I hope I can find a place where I can finally know as my own and share in that magic. May 2020 and the years ahead be everything and more not just for me but everyone. I look forward to watching my friends grow in their own dreams as they make them that much more real with each passing day.

May artists of the world unite.